I got this!?

Yesterday, something extraordinary happened. I signed up to the gym, actually went, and my son liked the daycare! Granted, he did hit a child (what else is new), but for the first time since having children, I did an entire class (H.I.T -high intensity/interval training class, nonetheless) and never once ran out to peer through the child care room window to ‘check in.’

Instead, I busted my chubby butt, squatting, throwing weighted balls in the air, dips (with my feet on the floor), rowed on a rowing machine, did sit-ups against the wall, and other grueling but exuberating intervals with a group of 12 random women (some I happened to know).

I have never been more sore, and have never been more motivated.


I can barely walk.

Fortunately for all of you, it has not impeded my ability to speak. Or type.

I am not really sure how it all happened and when, but somehow over the course of a year and half, I have managed to pack on 10+ pounds and 25 since I have been married (almost 8 years ago).

Now of course this does not include me tipping the scales during my 40 and 50 lb. pregnancy weight gains (dang those cupcakes) but even since having my second child, and loosing said weight, I am back up.

Unfortunetly for me, I carry my weight well. I am tall {relatively}, so it (the fat) takes a while to travel through my entire body. It is not until it reaches my head that I realize what the heck just happened.

Hindsight – I guess the fact that I just can’t seem to find jeans high-waisted enough to hide {tuck-in} the growing ‘front ass’ I have developed should have been a red flag.

Ya, think!?

It really wasn’t until I was with my besties this last weekend in Murphy’s, CA sipping wine obsessively trying to take selfies at an angle that made my face and head look slimmer that it really hit me. Much to my dismay, the magicial shot never happened. Well unless you count this blooper, Lauren managed to capture…


Lauren is inspiring. Despite all the wine consumed, she managed to give me the nudge I needed to make some personal changes. She has always found ways to make me feel better about myself since the day I met her 29 years ago.

All my friends do, in different ways. It is funny interesting how that is.

words of wisdom posted to Facebook by Lauren
words of wisdom posted to Facebook by Lauren


I am going to do something about my expanding waistline, and better my mental health (physical too, of course).

Today, I teamed up with a few like-minded “enough is enough” friends to make our own weight loss support group. We are hoping that the three of us, can hold each other accountable and lend our valuable support along the way without having to pay someone for our successes.


No offense, Weight Watchers. I actually really like you, but I just don’t want to pay for you is all.

We started off by introducing ourselves as the addicts that we are.  My text read,
“Hi, I’m Ashley. I am the quintessential stressed out eater who loves all things crunchy, processed    and or fried. I currently weigh my all time high. My goal is to loose 12.5 lbs by June 27th (I am in a wedding on this day – Congrats Jake and Lily!) and to ultimately loose 20.”

By saying this all out loud to friends (actual weight was included in the text but omitted here for the purposes of sheer embarrassment), it made it real.

Beginning today, every week we are going to log-in to a shared google doc, and document our weight, exercise for the week (my goal is 3-4 times) water consumption, etc.

As one of us said, “We are at our highest and ready to be done with it!”

I believe in accountability as a key to success.

This post (and our weekly check-ins) will do just that. Fingers-crossed.

I promise I will keep you posted as time progresses.

Wish me luck!

Swimsuit and “hot boat” season is just around the bend!

Magazine Mom

Day 28: behind the black door~ refueled

As I just walked into the door from my {preschool} board meeting with more energy than I have had in weeks, it donned on me. I recharge, get fueled, through adult conversation and interaction. Hubby has been telling me this for years, and I never thought anything of it, until yesterday when my dear friend, Nicole, and fellow 31 day challenge blogger, asked the very question to her readers.

So, what about you? What are the activities that really make you feel refreshed? That fuel you instead of draining you? Are they all “producing” or “neutral” activities, or do “consuming” activities help you relax, too?

Of course, the question makes more sense if you read her post, but it is incredibly insightful.

What activities do you do that fuel you and maintain “internal order?”

For her, it is journaling or creating.

For me, to quote my response to her question, “I think having good conversations makes me feel refreshed, as well as doing (creating, writing, drinking (lol)…etc.)”

The other day, hubby said that maybe I should get a ‘real job’ because I thrive on adult interaction. He quickly rebuttaled, “Oh, never mind, you are so tortured by not being with the kids, that it just wouldn’t work.”

Clearly he is right, but there has to be a better way.

Light bulb.

I just need to spend more time with adults, especially ones I like. You know, see my friends who I adore, or at the very least talk to them on the phone (I LOVE talking), have some dates with my hubby, connect with like-minded people without a toddler attached to my leg.


So, in 4 days, I will be making this a priority. I already have, by sending an email to my mommy group for a new twist to our monthly night outs. To insure, months go by without a night out, I asked us all to choose a month in the year to ‘host’ that months evening. When it is your turn, you can either host it at your house, or chose the restaurant. It is perfect.

Now, I will be creating another one, for my besties.

I will also be adding “get a sitter” to the top of my to-do list that has been collecting dust for the last 28 days, so hubby and I can have more than three date night/days a year. Ahem.

I am thankful for the awareness of knowing what I need for fueling my mental happiness. Thank you, Nicole, and hubby.
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This is good stuff.

Magazine Mom


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